The Wizard of Oz and Frankenstein


The Wizard of Oz and Frankenstein

Oz is a woman's world:

Frankenstein, the wizard of oz, and the anxiety of creation in 

MY VERY FIRST MEME inspired by Wisecrack Edition's analysis of Nihilism as portrayed in Bojack Horseman  and Rick and Morty!

MY VERY FIRST MEME inspired by Wisecrack Edition's analysis of Nihilism as portrayed in Bojack Horseman

and Rick and Morty!


"Wednesday Guy" is basically a torch song about a troubled but popular nerdy artsy type of guy with daddy issues ("He knows a lot of big words, but he doesn't know any sentences..."). The subtext is that the darkness in you was attracted to the darkness in him in the first place.

My nosy friends and fans and associates would sometimes say "ooh, that's about a specific person, isn't it?"  And I would answer--I answered honestly because I'm a lazy liar-- "yes and no; it's about four specific people all smushed into one, like in Frankenstein when you smush together different dead people's body parts and make a monster."

This metaphor inspired me. I decided to make my music video a re-enactment of Mary Shelley's famed Frankenstein story, with me as the misguided doctor who creates a monster and then abandons him and has to deal with the consequences.  Except in the video, I seek to create a boyfriend (a.k.a. sex robot) for myself--in this, I will be creepily both mother and lover to my creation. The Oedipal implications are there, but I also see it as an exploration of power dynamics and the sense in which all relationships--up to and including sexual ones--are about power.  (By pure coincidence, we have now entered the age of the Sex Robot, according to the Media that be.)

I also make a scarecrow and bring him to life as a second attempt to make my own boyfriend, after my corpse-reanimation creation goes totally wrong.  This is an homage to another work of old-timey literature (L. Frank Baum The Wizard of Oz was first published in 1900,  Frankenstein in 1818), but it is also a very personal, primal reference to my first crush:  I watched The Wizard of Oz for the first time when I was four and Ray Bolger's portrayal of the Scarecrow in the 1939 film made me swoon with a totality that my small and soft little girl self could not comprehend.

This memory got me thinking about the Power Dynamics in the Wizard of Oz.  My dad has a theory that the Wizard of Oz, although written by a man, takes place in a Matriarchal Universe. It is a place where females have all the power.  The Wicked Witch comes and goes in a puff of smoke and terrorizes everyone; Glinda the good comes and goes when she pleases in a bubble and transports Dorothy across realms; Dorothy melts the Witch by pouring a bucket of water on her.   By contrast,  the only men we encounter are severely handicapped:  the Scarecrow and the Tin Man are both completely immobilized until Dorothy frees them (and they allegedly lack a heart and a brain); the Lion is psychologically and socially hemmed in by his own cowardice (and thereby cannot conform to the gender or species norms of his community); the Wizard is revealed as a fraud and a con-man with no real power.  Magic and strength belong to the females of the story. Oz is a Woman's World. 

The Scarecrow's journey, as it applies to my video concept, takes on a bit of a new meaning for him.  It occurred to me for the very first time this morning when I was procuring straw (of both the real and fake variety, city girl that I am)  that when Dorothy takes the Scarecrow down from his post, it is the first time he has ever been able to move.  In this sense, she is kind of like a Mother Figure to him , as she gives him the gift of mobility, which, of course, his insensitive creator--the unnamed farmer--never did.   Then, of course, he stumbles around like a toddler for a while, learning to walk.

These comparisons--between mother and lover and creator, between straw man and toddler--also got me thinking in a meta sense about myself as a creator.  I was inspired by a Nathaniel Hawthorne unit in my Literature Class at Hunter College to wonder if there is a kind of wannabe-Scientist subconscious urge present in the mind of a Writer who decides to write about a Scientist. Literary talents such as Shelley and Hawthorne, living after the Enlightenment and the Industrial Revolution, saw Science becoming more powerful: perhaps they felt inferior on some level, as mere writers, and they wrote about science, because, well, those who can't do science will write about science.  Are artists aware of themselves as doing the inferior kind of creation? I'm probably projecting on to them because, for a very long time, I have struggled existentially with my role as a mere singer and a mere writer on a planet where some people can make iPhones and cure diseases.  

Hopefully this insecurity and existential angst informs the heartfelt-ness of my performance in the video. 


the size debate

the size debate

the size debate

So big are you, huh?

So big are you, huh?



Is shaped

      Like a penis

Like a





It's the penis of New York and it's my favorite of all the boroughs


There's this ongoing debate about how big New York's Penis is

whether that blobby thing next to that's Brooklyn slash Queens

is the testicles


one of my friends says that that would make Manhattan a grower

because noone's ever seen it hard

but it's Manhattan

land of skyscrapers and excitement

and so we have trouble imagining

that it's always just dangling there and looking pretty


Other people think that the Bronx are the testicles of New York

and Brooklyn and Queens, together, are a face that's finished going down on Manhattan

and that little thing that's Staten Island

is the cum


giving New York a bigger dick than it would have if we interpreted Brooklyn and Queens as the balls


I like to think it's the second one

New York is like a father to me

So I know I probably shouldn't be thinking about New York in that way

but I guess my logic is that if I'm a daughter of New York

and New York has a big penis

I would have one also if I were a man


I know I shouldn't think about New York in that way

because I'm not a pervert

but a friend of mine pointed it out once when we were on the subway

and we all look at that map every day

it's hard not to think about it  


New York Hates Me/Shadow Selfie

New York Hates Me/Shadow Selfie

i love new york new york hates me

"Shadow Selfie" a self portrait by me

"Shadow Selfie" a self portrait by me


New york hates me

I love New York New York hates me

it's like a friend I never see

I'm like a tourist in my own home

Among my tribe I'm all alone


Among the Geeks I'm just a Dork

what did I ever do to you New York?


New York hates me we never talk

he's like a guy I like to stalk

star of the show little nothing me

I love New York New York hates me


I feel like a post-party piece of cork

Or a cobweb that hangs from New York


the accent of childhood

the accent of childhood

the accent of childhood

"Life's a pinata she busted long ago/ the candy was stale/ and all the same flavor..." from my song "Sane Jane" coming soon. Photo by Oceanlab Studios/Michelle Fernanda Varela

"Life's a pinata she busted long ago/ the candy was stale/ and all the same flavor..." from my song "Sane Jane" coming soon. Photo by Oceanlab Studios/Michelle Fernanda Varela


I knew I would be lousy

at adulthood

when I was sixteen

I had a nightmare that it was my twentieth birthday.

That was the entire nightmare.






General Winter.jpg

SO this is spring 

Like a soldier
I lay my weapons down
for General Winter
I had big plans for this morning.
Not anymore.
So this is Spring. 

that first day

that first day

the first day 





I remember you on that first day

asking a random stranger

if smoking pot

would help with your constipation

I was charmed

by your accent  


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